Why do I write gay romance? I answer the question yet again.

I’ve been asked this question repeatedly. Last time was during a little mini interview for the UK Meet. Basically, I said I like the dynamic between two men and I think love is love, and, well, I love it. 🙂 I adore romance. It’s always been my preferred genre—for reading and writing both. A lot of authors (and readers when asked why they read gay romance) will say “well, one man is hot, two is even better.” And, yeah, I think two men are hot together. But I also like two women together and a man and a woman, so it’s not just about the visual for me. It’s deeper than that.

I had a moment just now when I was scrolling on Tumblr and I saw a collection of pictures of male couples on the verge of kissing, that moment when you’re just a breath away, sharing the same air, lips barely brushing. There’s anticipation there, a breathless expectancy of that first touch and then a warm, slick tongue. And it made me think. See, I’ve known a lot of strong, proud men in my day. The Latino culture tends to be pretty macho in general, and my family members for the most part aren’t an exception to this. I’ve known men who you’d never see cry, who see it as a weakness. Then a man like my father, who is fairly intimidating at first sight, who I’d sometimes find sitting at the kitchen table thinking of his mother, crying because she died when he was in his late 20s and to this day he misses her. All these different types of men, some who were more communicative than others. I had a boyfriend who never cried, at least not in front of me. My husband? He cried with me while I was in labor, and he admitted to crying over episodes of certain TV shows when he was younger.

You know what I love more than anything? I love watching a man fall in love, because for some men, it’s the only time you get to see them vulnerable, see them tender, watch them let go of some of their pride. I think it takes a lot of strength to let someone in emotionally, to give them the power to hurt you. You put your heart in someone else’s hands and you think to yourself, Please don’t break it. It’s the only one I have.

I think women in general love more easily. A lot of women wear their hearts on their sleeves. Some men are like that too, but in my experience, not nearly as many. With my ex, it was a battle to get him to admit he cared about me in any way beyond friendship, even though we were dating. In fact, it wasn’t until he cheated on me and I was crying and brokenhearted and we were on the verge of breaking up that he admitted it. I asked if there’d been any time, any time at all, where he loved me as more than a friend. He said yes. He later proved this in a series of soppy letters about how much he missed me and such. By then, it was too little, too late. He could have admitted caring while we were together. He never did. My husband told me he loved me within two weeks of our meeting. Eight years later, he says it still.

Two men who loved in very different ways, and one whose pride never let him fess up to it when it actually mattered. However it happens for the man—quickly or fighting tooth and nail—I like watching, reading, and writing that process. Because I think, for men, it’s not as easy to be openly affectionate and loving, especially when in a relationship with another man—not only because of fear/awareness of their surroundings and possible repercussions from close-minded individuals, but also because a lot of the time, I feel like society expects men to be these strong, impervious creatures. A man never wants to be picked on for being a “sissy/pansy” (or whatever slur you can think of) or for being “caught up” or “dick/pussy-whipped.” That ex I mentioned? He maybe held my hand in public once during the course of our year-long relationship and only kissed me in public one time when he was drunk and we were in a dark bar. Everything else happened behind closed doors, and even then affection (both verbal and physical) was rare. He just wasn’t the demonstrative type.

So the point to all this rambling? I just adore it when a man can open himself to love—both being loved and loving someone else. I like the vulnerability, the joy, the pain, and everything else that comes with it, and I like it even more when the man falling in love isn’t the type to think he’d ever want or need it. That, especially, is my weakness. ♥


About Piper Vaughn

Piper Vaughn wrote her first love story at eleven and never looked back. Since then, she’s known that writing in some form was exactly what she wanted to do. A reader at the core, Piper loves nothing more than getting lost in a great book—fantasy, young adult, romance, sci-fi, she loves them all! As a bisexual and Latinx person, Piper takes great pride in her heritage. She grew up in an ethnically diverse neighborhood and strives to put faces and characters of every ethnicity in her stories, so her fictional worlds are as colorful as the real one. Above all, she believes that everyone needs a little true love in their life … even if it’s only in a book.

Posted on July 27, 2013, in piper vaughn, rambling, writing and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. Reblogged this on jmoswisdom and commented:
    Loved this post!! 🙂

  2. Hi Piper! Being Latina myself and growing up in that culture, I can relate to what you’re saying here. Ever since I was little there were expectations for me and my brother. The biggest expectation placed on me was that I would get married and provide grandchildren, and although I wanted to one day, it’s only now that I’m in my thirties that I realized I didn’t have to do what everyone expected of me, that I could stand up and say, “No, that’s not what I want for myself right now.” I think you understand the emphasis that’s placed on young Latina women to get married. For my family and those I grew up around, it was more important than a career–especially a career that was in the creative field, because there seems to be this expectation that everyone should be a doctor or lawyer.

    And then of course there was my brother’s side of things, where I would hear family constantly telling their sons what they needed to do to be “Men”, how they shouldn’t cry or let their women control them. The machismo ran high. Granted, not all Latino culture is like that, but certainly the one I grew up in. I’m grateful that over the years my parents–who have always been supportive despite our differences, have accepted the fact that I won’t ever be the same as their friends’ daughters, how what might work for one person, may not work for someone else because everyone is different and should be allowed to live their life how they see fit. *hugs*

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